So, I’m lookin through my Spotify recommendations… Tame Impala (cool), Kid Cudi (cool), Mikky Ekko (cool), Wiz Khalifa (cool), Justin Bieb… 😳😨😱😭 #spotify #ihateyou
i don’t exactly know why. i just feel lost. i’m trying to feel secure in my loneliness but it is terribly difficult for me. i am trying to understand why i’m this way so i can try to resolve it.
i’m trying to do the right thing. it’s lonely though. and so many times, i’m just trying to smile and pretend that all the pain and hurt does not exist.
this is why i keep this blog. it’s private from everyone that affects me. it’s secret from the world that i live in that causes me pain. i can come here and bitch and moan and cry and talk about all the heartache.
nobody needs to know about the 101 ways i’ve imagined my own death. nobody needs to know about the madness in my mind. they may not understand. they may not see me as the strong force they’ve come to see me as. they may not love me.
i keep trying to remind myself… this too shall pass.